Good against Bad

Life has just been fliping and switching sides lately.

Thankfully the greatest joy in my heart gives strength to release all the pain and confusion that comes up with the problems, that are getting too serious even for an adult to cope with.

At the moment main sorrow comes out of my fathers health. Don't wanna get too deep into it but it's serious for sure. Today was supposed to be the day when we get to find out how bad it is but the results didn't arrive. Another 24 hours of waiting. It hurts to see your father changing into a pessimist and talking about things that you never-ever heard him talking about before.

Even if it is for a moment, to think that you are going to be a father in an unexpected way can really take you down. It can really shut man's mouth, I know now. Fortunately it came out that the reason I was left was that pregnancy came from another. But the ends were almost matching. It would have been a banger. So Thank God.

There are slopes in every relationship and specially in every relationship in the beginning phase. If separate lives have been lived for 20 years, it's normal to have different histories. Even if our lives rhyme perfectly. This transition can't always be seamless, rough edges take some time to get smoothened. It gives great pleasure to feel that everything will eventually come together perfectly. It makes me wanna support and wait and hold her close meanwhile. Such a thrill it is, to have someone to trust and lean on and that she knows it's the other way around aswell. :)

She makes me wait every tomorrow after tomorrow and hoping that it's going to pass along with her. Love ya :)

Mihkel